my fault.

isnt it up to the oldest to look after the house? i mean, after my dad passed away i feel like its up to me to hold down the fort. well my older sister is moving out, i mean shes 21…its about time. but imĀ  ready to leave the nest. start my own life, have my own experiences. live with my boyfriend start our life together…but for some reason i have this thought thats been hovering over my head like a dark cloud. since my sister is moving out its up to me to hold the house up. and its a large house. too much for one person. so if i were to move out as well it would most likely go up for sale. and my dad did all the renovations so its like selling a peice of him. and because im the last to move…it would be my fault. my fault that my moms grandchildren wont come home to the same place i grew up. so i have that burden on my shoulders. that i cant leave cuz my mom would colapse and we would have to sell the house and i think my family would blame me, because i moved out, they now have to sell the house. and its eating away at me…cuz i want to start my own life…but feel held down by the weight of my family and home that i cant. its putting alot of pressure on me. and im not sure what to do because i feel i cant become or grow cuz im stuck and i cant move on past it.

3 Responses to “my fault.”

  1. Wow! Thank you very much!
    I always wanted to write in my site something like that. Can I take part of your post to my site?
    Of course, I will add backlink?

    Regards, Timur I.

  2. phoenix says:

    i honestly would rather you didnt. they are my own personal feelings… sorry no offence.

  3. Erarkeedo says:

    Your site displays incorrectly in Explorer, but content excellent! Thanks for your wise words.

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